When was the last time that you realized you were in desperate need of the Lord?
The past couple of weeks I have found myself sitting on the floor in tears asking God to bind up my heart, and to fill it with good things – more of Him. I know I am not alone in walking through a hard season, whether it’s based on your career, unfulfilled longing, loss of relationship – we have all been there, or are currently there.
Friends, the Lord is so good.
I have been listening to the song Seasons by Hillsong Worship, and 1. Go listen to it ASAP, and 2. These lyrics (praise hands):
Though the winter is long even richer
The harvest it brings
Though my waiting prolongs even greater
Your promise for me like a seed
I believe that my season will come
Lord I think of Your love
Like the low winter sun
As I gaze I am blinded
In the light of Your brightness
Like a fire to the snow
I’m renewed in Your warmth
Melt the ice of this wild soul
Till the barren is beautiful
I can see the promise
I can see the future
You’re the God of seasons
I’m just in the winter
If all I know of harvest
Is that it’s worth my patience
Then if You’re not done working
God I’m not done waiting
Here’s what I can tell you about hard seasons, especially seasons that hurt so deep in a way you cannot fully express – I don’t know why they happen.
So encouraging, right?
I don’t know the WHY behind hard seasons – but I know the WHO, the “why” may change, and honestly, I may never fully understand. BUT GOD, who is SO incredibly rich in mercy and grace never changes.
In fact, throughout the Bible He is constantly drawing the brokenhearted to himself – and He strategically uses those hard seasons to not break us down but build us up into Himself.
During hard seasons David is hands down my favorite writer to read – and I have studied some of his words over and over again. The Psalmist continually acknowledges his weakness and pleads with the Lord to come through – and yet in his anguish, he immediately in the next breath praises the Lord.
His praise is so intimately woven in with the admission that he is broken and in need of the Lord to come through.
The entirety of Scripture is made up of stories incredibly full of hope for everyone who acknowledges their own weakness and places their trust in God’s unfailing love, strength, and mercy. He is our rescuer, not just for salvation, but for every situation we face.
“So I take PLEASURE in weaknesses, insults, hardships, persecutions, and in difficulties, for the sake of Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong” – 2 Corinthians 2:10
Friends, if you are walking through something hard – Same. I write these words as the Lord slowly binds up my heart – as I sit waiting on the Lord – but I write them with an unwavering faith that though I don’t understand the “why” I do get to understand the WHO even deeper. The Lord wants our whole hearts and obedience – He knows our desires and He has GOOD plans for us.
These momentary pains are creating in us a groaning far deeper than words – pushing us towards something greater than we can even begin to imagine. What will you choose in your pain? I won’t lie to you, the enemy wants you to be stuck, move backward and choose yourself in these moments. Will you choose yourself – or, will you choose to stand and admit your brokenness, seek community and counsel and trust that God is who He says He is?
In reality, I am writing this post for me – I want to be marked as a woman who gives grace and who whole heartedly trusts the Lord – because this life isn’t about me, and I BELIEVE God will come through and that His plans are greater than my own. So, if I am to let go of a dream in order for His Gospel to be made known more through me… then even if I tearfully hand it over, I want that to be my response.
If the stars were made to worship so will I
If the mountains bow in reverence so will I
If the oceans roar Your greatness so will I
For if everything exists to lift You high so will I
If the wind goes where You send it so will I
If the rocks cry out in silence so will I
If the sum of all our praises still falls shy
Then we’ll sing again a hundred billion times
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